Thursday, March 16, 2006

My husband has discovered this blog, so now I have to be nice to him. Hi honey! ;)

Anyway. Sometimes I get discouraged at the mundaneness of it all. I'd love to just pick up and go. I'm tired of naps, tired of feedings. I want freedom! I am so pressured, so badgered to have another child. At least that's the way it feels. Sometimes I don't want to go through this again. I really don't. But then I look at my husband and don't want to let him down. And I think of my daughter growing up and not having a sibling. Is it wrong to be selfish in this matter? Especially when I am the one doing the bulk of the care? I want to be free again! To do what I want. But what would I do? I think I just need sun.

I'm going to go do dishes.

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