Sunday, November 23, 2008


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Please pray for us. We've had a very exhausting week. A lady in our church died suddenly and so that was a whirlwind of activity. I am driving tomorrow with two children, one of which nurses frequently during the day and another who can't leave her brother alone, to my in laws. Hubby is staying here, we are getting the new windows in. Andrew has a service Wednesday night and then is driving down to his parents on Thursday. Thanksgiving then. Then back up here on Saturday for another memorial service. Ugh!

I am apprehensive about driving both kids by myself. I find myself thinking way too much about stuff and if I just do it and not think about it, I get through fine. I'm sure I'll be fine, but I still covet your prayers.

Pray also for hubby. He's tired and I worry he'll get sick. I'm hoping with us gone he'll have some time to recharge. I'm sure it will be nice for him to be by himself for a while.

Pray for my mind. I am obsessing, and I do mean obsessing about this weight issue. I need to just let it go. I cannot diet. And I will not wean Rhys just to loose weight. So I just need to be ok with where I am at. And I'm not. But not being ok with it is driving me nuts. I am constantly berating myself, telling myself nasty things in the mirror. That doesn't help. This is where I am at. I need to just be ok with that. I am working on it, but it didn't come on in a day and it won't come off in a day. Please pray for peace in this area. I need to just let it go. It will come off, of that I am sure. But I just need to be patient. I know it can come off and a year or so of carrying around some extra weight is ok in the long run. I am giving my child the best.

I probably won't be on here till Saturday again, so have a great Thanksgiving!!


Rachel F. said...

Even though you won't see this right away, I am praying for you now. You'll make the trip fine and have a wonderful time with family. :)

And just try to be healthy right now. Weight is secondary to your health and the health of your baby. You're doing all the right things--eating right, exercising--and who knows, the weight may start coming down bit by bit with just that.

Bethany said...

I know what it feels like to tell yourself nasty things in the mirror. It's a hard thing to stop doing. I don't have any magical answers, and in your mind you already know all the logical things that anyone could say (it's about health, not weight, worry about it when you are done nursing, etc. etc.). But knowing it and feeling it are two different things. I'm sorry you are dealing with this. (((((Big Hugs))))

You are truly a beautiful woman, and your body has made two gorgeous babies. That's a lot to be proud of!!!