Monday, January 22, 2007

Just Lil ol me

Good grief! I just realized I haven't blogged on here in about a month! Gee wizz. Gotta get on here more often.

I'm loosing weight. Yup, that's right. I'm back on track and I've already lost my christmas weight and then some. I am just 6 pounds away from my prepregnancy weight. Which is still overweight, but still.... I've been counting calories. Yuck. But hey it works. I've found this great site Nutridiary that is free and is very extensive. I really like it. I've found that for me, if I consume 1500 calories a day but then expend 500 a day I will loose weight, but yet have energy and not feel weak and tired. So far I've lost 6 pounds doing this and I started it Jan 5. YAY!! I have another 36 pounds to go and then I'll be at my goal weight. Most of this is old fat. It'll be harder to get rid of. We've become good friends. About 17 years long. I've always been overweight. Always. I'm gonna do it though. It just takes willpower. Willpower to not eat sweets and breads, willpower to be active. My favorite saying of late has been "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels". It's corny, I know, but it works! I just keep that in the forefront of my mind and it's been working. I do allow myself to indulge. But it's not often. And I enjoy it when I do. And I just compensate later for it. Like I'll take a walk, or bounce on my stability ball for a while. Or just do some extra at the gym. Everything is permissible, just not everything is beneficial. I have to know that everything that goes in my mouth will be accounted for. There is no one else to blame except me. And I'm taking control of this. I think it's about time.

We opted out of going to the pastoral assessment this week in PA. They provided no childcare and while we knew this, one of the leaders said that he could find someone. That someone ended up being 1 hour away. They wanted us just to drop Nadia off at their place and leave. Hello! She's still nursing and only 18 months old. Nevermind that, we don't know these people! This wasn't turning out to be very family friendly. I was worried. So we put it off till later.

Still haven't heard anything from Eastern. Hoping we will soon.

My very best friend is getting married! He's a great guy and very sweet. I think they will make a great marriage. They are both strong in the Lord and are seeking His will in this. She has asked me to be the Matron of Honor and to make the dress. Eck! Eh, it's an easy dress. I'm excited to do it. I have some altering to do to the dress, for how she wants it. It will be beautiful.

Nadia's doing great. She's teething, but when is she not? She's growing and just gets cuter everyday. I didn't think that was possible. She just does these funny things. She's such a riot. I love being a mom. Gasp! Did I just say that? I did.

Seems everyone around me is getting or has had another baby. Ya know, like the people I was pregnant with last time are pregnant again or have already had another one. I feel left out. But, I cannot let that get me. This is what we have decided. We don't have any insurance. It would be foolish. We will wait until we get a church. But I'm worried that we will never feel it's the right time to have a baby.

Off to do some other stuff on the web. I will try to keep up with this.

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